friend,
things seems to be so different now. not even a "hello" is said when you see me online. why, you're waiting for me to say it first? why don't you seem to care a little bit, by asking whether i'm fine or not, when i put "):" as my nick on msn? i've lost so much faith and confidence since the day i told you that i'm giving up. i know life would be different. but not to such an extent of not talking for a week or so. i know you'll always be there for me to help me get up when i'm down. but i'm not too sure about that now. everything seems so hard, everything. i don't feel the same thing anymore whenever i want to tell you things. it's like, you're happy with your life now, and i dont want to interfere with anything. i don't know who to go to when i'm sad anymore. people around me are all so happy, happy and happy. you were the only one i went to when i'm not feeling good about myself. you motivated me. now, you seem to be no where near. all the phone calls are now gone. all those texting messages have since disappeared. i don't want to lose you, my good friend. no one else have since been able to replace you.
i don't want you to disappear out of my life. that's all i'm asking for.